In truth, they've always been hard to fit into my schedule. But I do like to write when there's time. I wonder if that will be in 10 years...when little boys are gone and I'm trying to fill hours previously occupied by book reading, math teaching, history devouring, and just kid learning in general. It's ok. I have many ambitions. But am learning that I must prioritize those ambitions alongside the things I am obligated to, and maybe the extras will fit in later.
So, I've had these thoughts jotted down on my to-do list for at least two months. Oh well. Sooner or later it hits the old blog.
I enjoyed the pleasure of dancing at The Rock in San Diego in December for an event their women's ministry was putting on. A woman spoke and, though I can't remember her name, I do remember her heart. One of the many valuable nuggets she mentioned was a very practical tool that she suggested to us.
Sometimes we get so busy and so overwhelmed but it only takes a couple of minutes to P.R.A.Y.
And, though I do usually have the chance to study the Bible most mornings, I have decided to apply P.R.A.Y. to my almost-daily clothes-hanging time.
Praise God for His goodness.
Repent of my recent sins and misbehaviors.
Ask those things which my heart desires.
Yield to His will even if it's not what I thought I wanted; knowing that He is good always.
This only takes a few minutes and I have enjoyed this (somewhat) regularly scheduled time where I converse with God.
You know what I've noticed, though?
Every day I have to repent of something. Every.single.day. Really? I realized this after about a week or so of daily repenting. I went out there one day and I thought, "Maybe today I have nothing to repent of." And about 1.5 seconds later I realized I did have something to repent of. And it's pretty much been like that every day. ...except now I'm not surprised. I always say something I shouldn't have. Or had a bad attitude toward a member of my family. Or should have exerted more energy and attention into this or that. Or, or, or. Ho hum. "The heart is deceitfully wicked. Who can know it?" (Jer. 17:9) "For we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Rom. 3:23)
Don't I know it? I fall short every single day.
"Purify me from my sins,
and I will be clean;
Wash me, and I will be
whiter than snow.
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation,
and make me willing to obey You."
It's such a bummer to be convicted. All I want is to feel free, clean, and not bear the weight of even my smallest and most unintentional sin. And so we lay these at His feet. He takes it. We may have to make it right within our own earthly relationships, but He is faithful and just to forgive us of ours ins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Anyway, I thought that maybe I might not be the only one who has something to repent of every day. And thought I'd mention the easy practice of P.R.A.Y.ing.
God bless you,