"I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it." -Chuck Swindoll
This quote is staring at me as I prepare to read the next chapter of Sarah Palin's book. I used to live by these wise words and have somehow forgotten them, and how to apply them to my own life. A friend told me once that I was like a blade of grass...when I get stomped down, I'm down for a bit and then I pop right back up. I know that is in me somewhere but it seems lost at the moment.
Jaci Velasquez lyrics come to me..."Here I am again willing to be opened up and broken like a flower in the rain. Tell me what I have to do to die and then be raised to reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain." Such a theme song of my life at one time and yet I wish I could blossom in the downtimes like I once did so well. But I hold bitterness and hurt so much tighter now. Why is that?
And my mind...thoughts play over and over in my mind. What does that person think of me? What do they say when I'm not around? Ugh! It is absolutely the enemy. Even if these people do disapprove of me. Who cares!? God knows the motives of my heart. He knows my heart! All I need is to please Him and no one else. "For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ." (Gal. 1:10) (Haha! My spell check doesn't recognize the word "bondservant", a reflection of culture, I guess.)
And I try to take those thoughts captive to the obedience of Jesus, but they still dominate my mind. I must replace them with thoughts that are true. "God is good." "He has a plan for me." "I am significant to Him." "He will use me." "He gives me passions, talents, gifts, and opportunities. What are they? How am I going to use them?"
So, here's to "bouncing back" no matter who may gloat or boast at your downfall. God is picking me back up. Why should I return to the pit? Get out and walk away from it. Letting no one take from me what God is doing. Not any person, not the enemy of my soul.